Randomness

Well. I have so many things I want to sort out that I don't even know where to begin. I have a hard time finding time to blog lately which is a huge pain in the ass, and stuff just keeps piling up.

My lady seems... unhappy. Not with me, we are getting along well. We communicate well I believe. She seems unhappy with Z. That really bothers me. I would be devestated if they broke up. I could not be with either of them. I don't know how to be helpful, but I do know that in a poly relationship if one person has a problem everyone has a problem.

I am growing more comfortable with the fact that I'm still submissive. In some ways it feels like coming home. I'm not the person I once was, that is certainly true. I can't see myself ever being a total doormat again. And, yet... I still love to serve. I denied it and ran from it for so long. I was scared. Hell, I'm still scared. But, it makes me happy.